I hate waiting. I feel there’s a New York side to me that constantly feels like I need to be doing something; that way I feel good. I’m out hustling in the baking world trying to get my name out there for people to press pay instead of add to cart and then leave. I lack in patience, but work hard every day to practice it which is extremely hard. Nobody tells you that when you dream big dreams and put the work in sometimes you actually have to…wait (gasp for dramatic effect)! My ultimate goal is not lost on my customers, the Today’s show. I’m not sure where the dream came from, but there’s something about standing in that studio that feels like I did something right: like this dream wasn’t made up. It’s taken me a long time to believe in myself and that my product is good; self-doubt can really eat you alive. Maybe I am in a space where I feel defeated, but I won’t give up. This blog is my diary and today has been a day where I don’t want to wait: I want to hop on the express train to success and never get off. Realistically, I know I can’t live in self- doubt and fear-based thoughts. I will keep plugging along because I have learned when you truly wait and let go of plans you made, some pretty incredible things start to happen. “Sometimes the right path is not the easiest one” (thanks Grandmother Willow). I would rather not choose the smoothest course. I need to remind myself that I got here because of all the twists and turns life threw at me. I need to remember that when I lean into patience and trust,  then darkness fades and I find I am on the right path. All I can do is listen to my heart and believe that the right dream takes time.